the unholy lonely produced by .org featuring: st. pete, murlot, .org, ill ben hook: the unholy lonely st. pete I used to talk to myself till I said shut up now when I see him he doesn't even say what up let me get cut up and drift toward darkness a body that's heartless unholy lonely the whole world stinks so I'm staying homely and say what's up homey to my shadow with no response I think he wants to battle get cut up and served like cattle so I said what I said and nothing came back yo this brick wall is wack sketched out and crazy with no crack heart race cold sweat panic attack click light pull pull get back intact level out realize that in fact as I look around I'm still alone hello Mcfly is anybody home murlot I roam alone I won't atone a grim tribute to self induced abuse continued this day to day this day to day it doesnít matter what all the little weak people say do it anyway be it breeze or flame incognito fame coming down like the rain last picked in the game I think my life's been teasing hypocrite all I say and all my thoughts are treason anti-establishment my banter for banishment increase the damage heirs plans transparent what I'm too near oh in need of a hero compete with peers or pout back at mirror or peer between fingers frown scowl or leer or drown laughs in a beer or down a sack and grill evil see no so low head below choke swallow pill oh .org garbage at large barge in Madame Defarge two cities shitty scarred ardent and mars yours or ours martyred in bars stars are far orbit gar badge slash car past carpet mark it mass berzerker broken worker arrow sparrow seeker sock looker cooked wookie lookie sickly rookie shook me all booky look what's not phony is lonely if only solely holders coldly bolder sober wait it over wouldn't miss it implicit illicit he is risen driven derivative vivid alone and livid ask is it wicked pick it and sicken join the suffer get smothered plus others I'm bothered average take savage burn ravage raven I'm saving malicious vicious viscous discus missed us it varies married to disparage apparent subterfuge ill ben pentacular man handled math matter-of-fact I crack backs unilaterally crunch like cracker jacks bum rush for practice I'm bad to the hole in the wall connect foam collect gold increments incidentally the insane dental hygienist on the mic like 2 times out of 4 I'm over the age and urinating on the floor metaphysical porn I'm orbiting you're forfeiting or limping or fucking flipping out I'm in and out right about now no not really don't grill me we'll see beats and jellybean raps till the sun comes back around like 2 times by then we'll be super fresh better yet cassette in hand 'cause damn I'm the man sometimes unlike some guys I rhyme all the time -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- the unholy lonely annotated The first beat of 2003. I think it's pretty self explanatory, the unholy lonely. That's murlot and me on the hook, trying to sound like the beach boys. Ill ben really hates this song, I don't know why. For the music of the hook I took the notation from the Mr.Ockers song on "Rockin' Uranus", the song was "cordelia" which is one of the moons of Uranus (your anus). It turns out I transformed the melody, unknowingly, into some perversion of the violent fems song, "american music". While I was making the beat I was like, "this reminds me of something but I don't know what". 2 days later Fixx came over and told me that it was "american music". It doesn't change the way I feel about the beat because the similarities occurred without my conscious knowledge. However, that doesn't change the fact that it's subconscious plagiarism.